Monday, July 6, 2009 @ 11:50 AM
I wish i will not regret posting this up on my blog .Even though it was the past , but i still want to say something .
Being with you for 7months plus , i felt more unhappy than happy with you .
But did you know ?
You will always find fault in whatever i do .
Every min , every sec ,
I have to reply your message immediately when you sms me .
If i late reply , you will think that i'm messaging other boys , etc .
I tried apologising , when it wasnt my fucking fault at all ,
But you dont seems to care !
But when you late reply my message , did i say anything ?
NO !
I'm always letting you this , letting you that .
You dont seems to be appreciating it ?
That's what i think , maybe for you .
You might not agree with what i said .
You think that i'm everytime at fault , and you are not in the fault at all .
Did you realise that , never for once had i complain ,
Neither did i shout or scold you back !
Is not that i dont want to shout or scold back .
Cause' i know your temper .
If i shout or scold you back , you will be more angry .
So i just quietly let you scold me back .
Whenever my friends ask me out ,
I always reject them , giving all kind of fucking excuse .
Cause' i know you will be unhappy ,
I know you will think of all those negative things .
Even if i tell you that someone i knew is of the opposite gender is only my FRIEND ,
You will still have those negative thoughts .
Sometimes your temper really make me fucking piss-ed off ,
But i didnt complain ,
I bear with it .
You dont allow me to do this , do that ,
Yet you yourself are doing it .
To say the truth , i find that you dont treat me as your girlf ,
You just treat me as your DOG , with no freedom at all !
Scolding me as and when you like ,
If you are happy , you treat me nicely ,
If you are unhappy , you treat me like shit !
I'm a human ,
I have feelings too , i also have the right to have my freedom !
Even if it's a dog ,
It also have feelings , it also have the right to have it's freedom .
I admit that when you ask for break ,
I'm fucking sad ,
I'm torturing myself like one kind .
But now , i think its a good thing that you and me make that decision .
Even though there's a fucking ugly scar on my heart ,
Even though there's still some memories that i cant forget .
But i know one day ,
I will get rid and forget all this things !
No offence in posting all this up ,
Cause' its true .